Notes..

I hate being new at anything. I despise learning routines, remembering peoples names and figuring out when I am doing something all wrong. I think it stems from being a perfectionist and having an overwhelming need to stay out of trouble.

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Sure I want to do a great job, but I really don't want to get singled out for fucking things up. However, I feel there are fucks up in my near future. Part of that stems from the shoddy way I have been trains to my new department. Unorganized and pretty much left to fend for myself. I consider myself quick at picking up new routines, but military routines are not as familiar for me and I amn still attempting to makes heads or tails of it all.

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Ever notice when you now to an area everyone treats you like you are new to the profession? I have been in practice forever and have quite a bit of experience, but people treat me like I just fell off the turnup truck. I bite my tongue, but every now and then my smartass gets the best of me, my bad.

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Everyone has their own level of comfort and we all react to situations differently. Myself, I tend to be very laid back and try to work with what i have to correct problems. Newer and less experienced people tend to panic and over react - to the point of hindering efforts to corrct a situation and this is the behavior I am observing.