Out With A Fizzle....

Okay, a day later and some sleep have allowed me to gain a touch of perspective regarding my current situation (aka my crush). Actually, I played a little Internet stalker last night and found her Facebook page and this helped me to douse the small flames of hope. Yea let me just put it at that and now I can shake that little imaginary scene that was playing in my mind and just move the fuck on.

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I wish there were some way to turn off that thing inside that draws us to one person or the other. I have has some serious crushes in the past and they never move in the direction that I would like. Maybe I am aiming too high or in the wrong direction. The last one I had was a few years back, but she was in a long term relationship and I never had a chance there, but it did not stop me from feeling that immediate chemistry.

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Probably it is for the best. I am destined to be one of those people who never marry, never have children and spend their twilight years surrounded by cats and eating slices of cheese for dinner. People tell me when I am not looking for it it will happen and now I have gone and complicated things by joining the damned service where all enlisted are off limits and a portion of officers is deemed inappropriate (although they would be way old for me). So lets see about 95% of all those on base are off limits - I am not liking these odds! And I am somehow longing for a slice of cheese..