Since being home from deployment I have done the family tour. Stopped off at a beach resort that sucked and caught a horrible cold that lingers with me still.
None of that compares to the fucked up mess I have managed to get myself into. I cant really go into much details but I have placed myself in a situation that I ought not have put myself in and why did I do it? Because he asked me to and I could not say no.
Now I have a very short time to figure out what to do or face a possible very embarrassing moment. Reality is creeping in and what was playing out in my mind has meet the cold hard reality of my paranoia. I am not sleeping and dont know how I lt myself go down this path..actually I do and as a friend put it, "You are letting your dick think for you." he may be right.
So, I gotta make a tough call today based on very little information or wait and possibly really be put in a bad situation. In the end I am gonna have to go with my instincts and leave my dick out of the decision making.
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