Fat

I am making small strides,but I am afraid that it may be too little too late. With my PFT looming in the near future i am not sure I will be where I need to be to pass. I am running and doing all the things that I need to do, but the weight is still too high and it may be the waist measurement that does me in in the end. Odd as there are so many people on base so much heavier than me. oh well!

I can only control where I go from here. I knew coming in that the weight thing was going to be a constant battle and I have been on the losing end of that fight lately. i had been hoping to squeek by this time then focus and really bang out a good score in six month, but i may not get the option.

Here is what may happen. I pass everything but the gut is too big. I then will have 42 days to remedy the situation and partake in mandatory PT - Ugghh! This is what bothers me the most. I just now have gotten some bit of routine in process and that will totally eschew all the strides I have been making. In fact, I think it will hurt my progress. This is actually what disturbs me the most about the thought of failing. I have so many things going well - i just want the time to make it work for me.

Oh well, i have myself to blame for not watching my diet better. I let myself gain this weight and now it has become hard to shed I have thrown in the towel. I knew this was not going to be easy. I gotta dig deeper and make it work.