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This may sound odd.  I have been online chatting with someone.  Normally this would not be that big of a deal, but in this case it is cause I usually am online when I am both bored and drunk.  A combination that has brought me nothing but complications in the past.

Well, I had been going back and forth with someone who lives nearby - very close - I am talking walking distance. After probably two months of back and forth and times not being right I was online and tightly drunk and we decided to meet.  The meeting is one I can hardly remember and apparently we made some more intimate plans for later that evening.

Here is where things get a bit sticky.  I recall a quick kiss and returning home and showering. I also remember some back and forth texting where I guess I was feeling "put off".  The last thing I can actually remember was texting, "we're done" and "have a nice life".  I then deleted the text string and the phone number from my contacts.

It has been four days since the exchange and I cannot help but wonder what it was that set my drunken self off and if it was really worth it to sever all ties.  Granted this was not a person I had much in common with other than a willingness to encounter....  However, as I mentioned earlier this person lives extremely close and I am sure to cross paths from time to time.

Thinking about it today I am left a little sad and depressed about the whole thing and it would have been nice to at the very least hold on to possibly a friendship.  Oh well....can undo what I have drunkenly done...