5:5

I am at a loss! Granted I ate a little more than normal right at the holiday but I did not go all crazy! My weakness was a few beers - few! So, taking that into account I did not weigh for a few days. Yesterday, I climbed back on the evil scale. The results, gained seven pounds!! WTF!! I do not get it. I would have had to eat like Oprah at a buffet to gain that kind of weight!!

So, I tried to tell myself the three day applies. Where false highs and lows stick for three days. This morning I weigh and it is down 0.4 pounds from yesterday. This of course after five mile run, 125 push ups and less than 1000 calories. At this point I cannot make the weight in time for COT.

I was to buy uniforms this week, but screw that! I am so depressed right now I don't care anymore. I may as well just eat everything in the house so at least I am not torturing myself these last five weeks. If I am going to be sent home - it may as well be worth it.

What kills me is that I am into my 30 jeans but the scale is telling me I am a fat slob! I totally give up!